30011991
An ex Bartleyan
3.1 ELN(networking) student studying in Tp
01111988
An ex Siglapian
Former IFC student in Tp
Currently serving NS
3 SINGAPORE GUARDS BATTALION
@ 11:45:00 AM
3 hours before EPT was spent outdoors. Went to have a bite at food culture or sumthing like tt at CS. Cass, Larlene & Fathin were my tour guide for de dae. Both TM & CS have undergone lotz of changes since de last time when I went there which is like a yr ago?? $5 was spent on food & its not worth de while. Next we went to CS toilet which is at lvl 2 & Im amazed by the looks of the toilet. Hahas!!
Fruits were bought at Shop & Save at de price of $1. Cheap huh?? 158 was de block tt we chose to go & eat. There, we played some games & we 'kena' chased out frm de void deck as we were making lotsa noises. We hurried & left de place as we cud hear de slamming of a gate. Tt cud be de person tt shouted at us. So funny indeed!!
Before even heading home, we headed to de lib's TV cabel to wait till Larlene to go for her drama. As usual, we were making lots of noises tt almost a fight is created. It didnt happen though.
Last pic of de dae, wat r Fathin & Hafeez doing? Basically, they r not emoing okay.. They're playing a game whereby if either one of dem laugh first, they'll lose. Dun noe who won coz we headed home after tt.
ps: sorrie fathin for not being abe to go online to send u these pics.. Im reli tired yest..
@ 12:40:00 AM
Time check : 9.40am. Here I am early in the morn blogging at tp's lib. Lotz of advices were received yest due to the display name of mine in msn. Something is definitely wrong wif me. Ppl had their confidence in me. Its not tt I dun have any confidence in myself, I alwaes feel down wheneva I cant attempt a question despite lotz of practices done.
'Slow & steady will win the race' Tts wat I alwaes believe but den when I see the pace in which Im going as compared to the rest of my classmates, I realised tt Im not onli slow BUT tooo sloww. Quizzes had been taken & I noe tt I wun be doing well. If quizzes Im already facing difficulty, wat more can I expect for tests & exams?? Ppl alwaes say tt I give up too easily. U ppl dun understand my position. Giving up is NVR an option for me.
I reali appreciate all de advices given to me. Give me time ppl. I'll prove tt Im able to make it. She's juz under some pressure over studies. She's not being herself nowadaes. Juz entertain wateva tt she does aitez.. Rite now, I'm juz waiting to noe how I did for my quizzes esp for DFUND1 & CKT.. I've gotta go & continue STUDY!! YEAH!!
@ 7:52:00 AM
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21st May. Its exactly a mth since I started sch. Its been a tough journey so far. It has been a gd + bad dae for me. Above r de candid photos taken while de 5 of us r in the TV Cable room. Its basically a place located in tp's lib, lvl 3. We're supposed to be watching tv but we had our diff things to be done too. We're 'lepak- ing' there. Jokes were being shared & I find tt I can be close to my classmates too, its whether I wanted it or not.
Tutoring session was next. The time was supposed to be 5pm but since EMATHS1 LSP ended at bout 3.30pm, we started earlier. The whole tutoring session didnt turn out gd as alwaes. Its not bcoz tt I cant understand his teaching, I juz feel tt it's not as usual. Jealousy?? NOPE, NOPE & NOPE!! I've no time for tt. Juz dun wanna mention it here. Wrtoral is in de process while Im blogging....
@ 10:15:00 PM
De gd news is tt Im sick-free!! Yeah!! De bad news is tt Im de laz student to finish de CKT lab session todae. &&&& its actually GRADED!! Oh gosh!! Im already kinda expected it way b4 I attempt de lab session. De rest of my classmates were like doing fine except for me. I took de WHOLE lab session to finish up my work. De entire 2 hours!! Quite depressed la but Im fortunate to have Larlene & Fathin waiting up for me. THX LOTZ CLASSMATES!! They cud have juz go first & meet up wif me for lec but they didnt. I feel bad to them la coz they actually wanted to eat at the canteen but I hold them up. ~~Sorrie~~
Next, my name is being called out by de CKT lecturer. Oh my!! Paiseh la coz I didnt noe how to answer. So, he called out another name instead. CKT,CKT,CKT... Wat a CKT dae I had. CKT test 2morrow. Im quite ready for it though not having de confidence. If onli CKT was a person, I wanna sae tt I cudnt understand u!!!!
I've noticed tt I started 'singing' during lessons. Tts precisely wat I alwaes do during sec sch daes & my singing partner wud've been Sebast. Missing those daes wif him sey.. Gtg & continue study for CKT.. Hope tt Im able to get all those formulae inside my brain & to be able to apply them..
@ 11:13:00 AM
As can be seen from de pics above, I've a great dae out from studying at T3's mac. Thx Haqim for de invitation. =D Nothing much to say la. I've changed de blogskin & its still under 'renovation' purposes. Soo... till den...Niwae, HAPIE BIRTHDAE HAQIM!!! ( his birthdae falls on 20 may)
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@ 11:43:00 PM
Suddenly... Actually not suddenly la, its almost everydae I alwaes have the feeling back with me. I've tried to forget it but to no avail. Why is the feeling back? Looks like the phrase 'memories aren't meant to be forgotten' is true. I'm missing all the memories tt we've once had together & I'm missing the person too. Not to the extend tt I miss him soooo much. Its just tt it's been a while since I last saw him.
Lotsa my frens think tt I've not move on. HEY, I've moved on ppl. Its just tt I'm quite lazy to get maself attached at dis point of time. I'm still enjoying the privileged of being single. Hahas!! Though its been a year +++ already, the memories still remains fresh in my mind. On the other hand, Im relieved tt it's eventually over though tt is NOT wat I really wanted. I respected his decision. U ppl might be asking, do I hate him? NO, tts the definite ans. I dun hold any grudges againsts him. Infact, I wanna us to be close frens. Y not? Its not impossible.
There'll be no end to this topic if I were to keep on talking bout it. Im sure gonna mention more bout it but not now. Im juz waiting for tt date to arrive. Tt will be somewhere in October. Stay tuned ppl!! Hahas!! Alritez.. I'm outta here.. Wanna get some rest.. I'm sick.. AGAIN!!! Tired of it man..
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@ 2:56:00 AM
Everything's back to normal. She's wat she's used to be. I think I need to find another tutor, not bcoz de previous one is not gd. De previous one still remains, I juz need an additional one. Its juz tt our available slots seems to have a clash. I'm gonna have a difficult time to 'book' his available slots. I needed a 1 to 1 tutor as I realised tt I dun go well in study grps much especially when I'm weak in my subjects. I wanna give independent learning a try again &&& wheneva I REALLY, REALLY needed help, I'll take de initiative to approach someone for help. Lab work. Tts wat I'll gonna improve de MOST followed by CKT, EMATHS1 & finally DFUND1. Wish me luck ppl for de upcoming Quizzes aitez...
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@ 10:07:00 AM
OMG!!! I dun believed wat I've juz done. I actually texted Din telling him tt I wanna stop de tutoring session thing for de time being. It has onli been de first session yesterdae. I didnt noe wat promt me to do tt. It must be due to stress. Im like studying frm 1pm till bout 8.30pm in TP lib juz now & nothing seems to get into my brain. It started wif EMATHS1 when I started to confuse maself by trying to combine all de formulas into 1. I seriously didnt noe wat I was doing!! Due to tt, it affected me in doing other subjs such as DFUND1. Im like 'ingat-ingat lupe'. Tts how my brain works.
My stressness is not due to studying wif aeynn & tini. Infact, I feel more comfortable studing wif dem despite them studying for their Os. I wanna try to work alone as I cant afford to be alwaes dependent on others for help but somehow, I failed. I really need help. So, u ppl might be thinking why de sudden thot to stop de tutoring session thing rite? Its bcoz I feel tt Im troubling Din. He's definitely a good tutor, tts for sure. My tears cant wait to be out frm my eyes but eventually I juz cried deep down in my heart. I managed to overcome tt stress of mine for awhile wif encouragements frm aeynn, tini, hilmi & even azeez.
De first thing I did when I reached home is to on de comp & be online. Din chatted wif me & dis is how our conversation goes:
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
hey elfie....
-eLfyeE- says:
yupz?
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
wad was just now all abt?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
i also dun noe.. think tt i'm under stress
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
i think u shld relax.... empty yr mind and get some rest... after that you're good to go
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
wad ya mean?
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
as in relax je..... dont take studyin too hard...
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
u noe wat?i juz came back frm studying at tp lib&& i dun think i've absorbed wat i've studied
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
when just now?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
yupz
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
how come i didnt see u?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
im at level 5
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
i was at 7
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
but why u dont want me to tutor u?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
i feel tt im troubling u..
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
not at all....
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
in fact it helps me btw
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
it refreshes my memory and yours
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
dun u feel tt im such a letdown to u?
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
not at all...
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
is that why u want to hold it off?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
mayb.. overall rite, wat do think of my character so far?
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
erm i think u give up too easily when u know u can succeed..... u can do it no doubt tapi u look down upon yrself....
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
u have to tak kisah kan the world and concentrate.....then u can get it
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
dun ever give up.... believe in yrself.....
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
r u gonna give up on me if i give up on myself?
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
nope....
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
do u realize that u can do more than u think u can?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
i dun noe.. dun worry, im not giving up animore
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
thats the spirit
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
so wens the next session u boleh?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
frm monday-wednesday & friday, i cant be home late as i've religious class to attend after maghrib..
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
hows about 9 am in the mornin on monday?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
im starting my lessons at 9am on tt dae..
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
5pm on mon?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
i end at 5pm but i'll have to leave by 6pm...
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
so how? u nak?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
if it's fine wif u.. i dun mind it..
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
me too
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
so can?
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
yupz
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
alrite
<-----Zorro10----->..What a start!!.. says:
i gtg... cyu on mon
-eLfyeE- she's down says:
okay. bye
Read it already? As u can see, HE's DE ONE asking me when's de next tutoring session will be & NOT ME. It seems like he cares more bout my studies den my ownself. I've set dis clear on my mind:
NVR EVER GIVE UP ON URSELF DESPITE WATEVA OBSTACLES TT URE GOING THRU!!!! IF OTHERS CAN MAKE IT, WHY CANT I?? IF OTHER PPL BELIEVE TT I CAN MAKE IT, WHY CANT I??
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@ 1:38:00 AM
11am was de time. 'Yesterdae' bus stop was de meeting place. Having breakfast was de planned. None of those actually goes as planned. Received a msg frm larlene saying sorie as she juz woke up & asked me for my whereabouts. So there am I, sitting & waiting at de bus stop. I was then told to meet at de bus stop nearest to TP. Instead of waiting there, I went to de lib as de weather's quite hot nowadaes. Luckily, I met aeynn. Did some chit chatting wif her for awhile before proceeding to de 'mushroom' to meet up wif larlene.
Larlene came wif hafeez & I realized tt fathin was not wif dem. Fathin thot tt it was de 1pm class todae. Larlene kept apologising for being late & kept me waiting for 45 mins. Didnt have breakfast though we went to de short circuit canteen as I didnt noe wat to eat there. It's quite funny to noe tt larlene,hafeez,fathin & even cassandra were actually late & all of them took a cab to sch. Hahas!! Wat a coincidence. I shud have joined them & took a cab for being late BUT I cant. Its precisely bcoz I live far away frm sch & I cudnt imagine how much wud de cab fare be!! Hahas!! Nvrmind frens. Juz dun be late again nx time rite..
Sum1 juz caught me by surprised. I actually wanted aeynn to accompany me to see a CKT lecturer of mine to answer my doubts but den I didnt want to trouble her as she had to go off at 4.30pm. Didnt managed to get thru de lecturer. Haizz. Fathin den accompanied me for awhile before leaving. Suddenly, I saw Din. Didnt expect to meet up wif him. He saw tt Im having difficulty in CKT & actually offered to help. Im more than happy tt sum1 is helping me when Im really in need of help. He helped me out a lil bit though he's having a lesson in a short while. I feel bad actually for having to trouble him. Did some self study of my own till bout 6pm. Din ended his class at bout 6pm too & he send me off to de bus stop while waiting for his father to fetch him & we went our own waes..
Labels: Late..
@ 8:21:00 AM
I had a dilemma yesterdae. Its bout choosing to go study wif hu. I called Fathin on Friday nite to ask her bout some EMATHS1 assignment tt we're supposed to do. She den asked me to tag along wif her, larlene & hafeez as they're going to study at tampines small mac at 3.30pm.
On Sat, Haqim called & told me to join him to study at Mac's T3 airport wif Kalil & Aishah. I actually wanted to follow as I've nvr studied at de airport before. But then, I also wanted to study wif my classmates at tamp. Haqim suggested tt I brought my frens over to study at T3's mac as well. So, I follow wat Haqim suggested. Fathin told me to ask Larlene & Larlene said tt we meet up first at tamp den go airport. So, I thot tt it was settled.
While Im in de train heading to tamp, I received a call frm Fathin saying tt their not going to study at de airport as Hafeez had to go off at/by 7pm. She said tt she dun mind if I wanna join Haqim to study at de airport. &&&& I made de decision to actually join my classmates instead of Haqim though it's a tough decision to make as Haqim might think tt I've forgotten old frens which is act not la OF COZ!! I had to set my priorities rite first.
If I were to follow Haqim & his frens to study, I've no one to ask questions if I had doubts as they'll not be able to help me as they're studying for their O's while Im studying EMATHS1 & DFUND1. If I were to follow my classmates, at de very least I can try to get closer to them & we'll be able to interact more. So, eventually de study place is at Simei's Long John Silver..........
Labels: dilemma
@ 7:15:00 AM
1st May:
Yeah!! So hapie as there's no sch todae due to labour day. Thx labour day. Hahas!! So, wat did I do on labour dae? Thot of revising but den it didnt happen. My family & I actually went bowling at Hougang which is near to Kovan. We went there to celebrate dear dad's birthdae which falls on the following dae, 2nd May. It was so much fun. Wanna noe y? Coz I ranked 2nd among my siblings. Its been a long time since I played & I think tt it's a job well done for me. Hahas!! The expert in playing bowling is definitely my dad which is also de winner. Headed to REX next for dinner coz I missed de food there especially de Seafood Fried Rice. A nice celebration indeed.
HAPIE 50th BIRTHDAE DAD!!
2nd May:
Went to celebrate Dee's birthdae at engine's canteen, Breadboard. Her birthdae actually falls on 30 April but she celebrated it wif us on 2nd May. Juz take a look at de pics & make ur own interpretation aitez?
De last pic has nothing to do wif Dee's birthdae la. Its taken while waiting for Tini & Dee to come. Sorrie for grabbing dis pic Aeynn. Hee~~HAPIE 17TH BIRTHDAE GF DEANNA!
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