I dun feel good at all nw. My mind is being drifted to a fren whom I've regarded to be someone close to me. I dun feel tt I am being a gd fren to u after all. Just where am I when u need my help yest?? U waited for my call in return when u gave me a call yest. I didnt have u called bck as I choses to prioritise my sleep more than ur prob.

Today, ard 9pm, when I call u asking bout wad had happen yest, u told me tt u've alr had it shared wif a fren of urs. When I told u to just tell me wad had happen, u said ''its ntg''. I cud actually be feeling glad tt u have someone else to talk to when I cant be ur listening ear. When u had me texted at bout 11 pm++ asking me to be calling u, I was actually watching a magic show tts been shown on RCTI (an Indonesian channel). De content of de msg u send reli made me feel tt ive done smtg wrong to u w/o me realising.

Since my sis is using de hm fone, I told u tt i'll call once my sis is done using it. I replied u late coz I was too engrossed watching tv. Ur replied to de sms has reli shown how me how much I did care for my frens. I cud have actually use tt opportunity given, as in not to repeat de same mistake as wad I've did de previous nite. Its morn now alr && I wonder how ure doing. Im ashamed if u were to still regard me to be a close fren of urs. Come to think of it, ure de one tts been looking for me all dis while && not de other wae round.

I thank u for making me realise how bad I can actually be. Im not dere when ure in need of help. Im sorrie tt I cant be dere for u. I'll try to make it up to u asap. May u just be strong wif wateva probs tt ure facing.

2mmrw's Valentine. Im nt in de mood at all for it. Suppose to be meeting some sec sch mates but I thot of postponing it. It cant be postponed. Plans had been made alr && it'll onli take a while. When u have not met ur frens for a long time, esp gerls, tt 'a while' will lasts for long, I can assure u..

Haishh.. why must de plans of both parties clash?? Valentine's day is bout spending ur time wif ur beloved ones but both parties are my beloveds. To tt someone, u might have said tt u understand my situation but I noe deep down, u alr have it all planned too.. It will be a different way for u celebrating it dis year. Can i just go for both in order not to hurt any party?? I wish I cud but its just impossible!!

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